September 6, 2006


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    It’s  curious how novelties  .. affect us


     


    Meeting a new person is always a novelty… 


    Ever notice how it’s often difficult to remember


    The name of a person you have just met.


     


    Think of how you experienced


    The novelties in you life?


     


    The first step you took


    You’re first day in school


    The first kiss


    You’re first child


     


    Or


    The first time


    You skinned you knee


    Got caught red handed


    Or got dumped by your love


    Can you remember that feeling…?


    Of having been totally surprised


     


    Be it either good or bad…


    Yet see here only situations that definitely


    are novelties..


    One of those special things that had never happened before


    That unfolds …


    In just such a way,


    The actual experience you are having ..


    Has no anticipated model of expectation


    For you to draw on.


    allow it to be as it is 


    Seek not to model them


    But instead hold them in beyond thee mind


    in a state of wonder


    Resist the impulse fit them into your understanding


    For these momentary occurrences


    Are so unique


    That you can’t begin to even try to explain them


    Envision  novelty…. Outside of the timebox


    And don’t focus on a specific event in your life


    Picture instead…


    Novelty as a group of things


    And that group having a unique


    Quality of spontaneity


    That puts novelty  into an entire class


    all by itself


     


    First time ever…. Events…of rare synchronistic occurrence


    Possessing a distinct and overwhelming sense of organization


    Coming together now


    Like magic…. The wonder


    Unfolding before your eyes…


    It’s powerful and kinda leaves you hanging


    And wets your thirst for more..


    You love it


    That … feeling…………


     


     


    Or


     


    drag


    You hate it


    Every damn second of it


    Novel situations…


    At Times  Can suck


    I am talking the serious kind..


    When suddenly a novelty occurs


    And


    You lose that which mattered most


    Something that cannot be replaced


    …You value(d) it so dearly


    You even dreaded the feeling


    Of loosing it..


    And then you did lose it


    That one …relationship


    Gone from your life


    Forever


    It feels like


    A bleeding hole


    A void place in you


    Where


    The future you had devoted


    So much of your time and attention


    Anticipating..


    Is gone


    Forever


    Read it again!


     


     


    Don’t try to stanch the bleeding…


    You can’t


    The model has you


    Your matrix of belief


    IS your life


    Let it bleed in your hands..


    Until you see


    You are not bleeding


    Open your hands


    And see.


    Observe how


    Your mind


    in


    Trying to make sense of novelty


    Is outa its depth..


    Yet you believe


    You are your thoughts


    You were trapped in a subtle process


    You didn’t see when you began


    Identifying with them


    Until collectively they had suddenly become your reality


    You made a house built of thought..


    and hammered it together


    with emotion and feeling


     


    Even now


    you continue


    To live in it


    Even as the walls are striped away from you


    And the entire frame collapses into ruin


     


     such situations often  proceeds the onset of an emotion…


    Anger


    Anger manifests from the energy vibrations of temporal collections of thoughts, collectively experienced as an emotion and described as quality of feeling that is orientated toward some supposed grievance


    And now YOU are..  Miserable


     


    Congratulations


    You are normal


     


    LLAMA TIME


     


    let go of it all


    not seriously


    but sincerely


    Let go of the all damn temporal modeling


    that drives the beauty from 


    the wonder of novelty


     


    As a group of out lived beliefs…


    Let them go


    Or you don’t have a model


    Or a life


     


    The model of belief


    Has  You


    statue-lama iberty


     


     

Comments (15)

  • sleep tight:sunny:

  • You, my dear, have a Llama fixation!

    Yes, the model chatter of any given moment of experience is the doom of wonder~

    A thought provoking entry this day, as ever, my Friend Dosmangoes~

    Blessings~ :sunny:

  • Ow…my brain hurts now…very penetrating.

    Life and Love begin when novelty becomes learning.

  • Good thing I’m not normal …

  • It’s really interesting….you know how we hear all that “healing the inner child” stuff.  Well, I’ve come to believe that it’s as simple as what you are saying here.  I wish people  wouldn’t call it that ”healing the inner child” thing because it implies we are wounded or immature if we don’t know the “secrets” you share here quite frequently. We’re not wounded or immature, we are simply human beings who haven’t reached that level of clarity, open-mindedness or enlightenment or whatever it is you want to call it.   I don’t know, it sounds so simple to me now, but in those moments when ego takes over (yes, alas, I am human and I accept that ego-struggle is part of the deal), it is sometimes difficult to remember that this is not then and all we have is now so I need to release the residual emotional residue and be in the moment.  Wow, I have no idea if that makes sense, but I think you know what I mean.  I guess I’m just grateful that life took me to a place where I’ve begun to have days of now-ness and when a “novelty” throws me backwards in my own mind, I have the awareness and “tools” to bring myself back into the now.  Life is too short to waste in yesterday’s negative energy.  Peace to you, my friend. Tomorrow, I think I’ll go stop by the llama farm near my house here and say hello for you.  :)

  • Novelty is the springboard into a greater level of awareness. Awareness that can be the bridge of realization in which you will find the keys to the freedom found in knowing that you are more than your thoughts, reactions and emotions. Llama to you,my friend

  • makes one think……we are really just living a barage of thoughts.

  • it’s curious how your words always seem to fit what i am feeling at the time.

  • Hej! Thanks for stopping by. Did I tell you that I plan to get my glider’s license within the next 2 years? Yes, you have certainly inspired me!

    Best,
    ~S

  • I love surprises (not all the time but generally, I do) and the novelty that comes along with it. And blessed are to to have such intense memories to record not only the situations but the emotions as well that came along with our reaction to such changes and surprises.

    :sunny:

  • RYC: interesting……..Our cetificates are from the US Army……but I do not know why it will not verify….it should. My other half is the tech in this relm, and he is not sure about this either.

  • yeah… I think I need to spend not so much time dwelling on novelties.

    Or maybe I should attempt to fit them differently into my worldview.

    Or maybe I it’s about discerning which novelties to put on a pedestal,
    which to remember and consequently change yourself with, or which novelties
    to put aside because in the grand scheme of things, they aren’t so important.

    Maybe it’s a combination of all three, plus more.

    Maybe I’m missing the point and digging into a particular facet of your post,

    But dwelling on the experiences that make up my consciousness, despite the
    fact that it’s a large concept and something hard for me to digest, has
    been if anything thought provoking.

    Thanks. For what it’s worth, when I take the time to break them down and
    understand them, I get a lot more out of your posts than I do the questions
    posed at the theologianscafe. I reckon it’s apples and oranges in the end,
    however.

  • nice use of color to change the mood   lol  hope you are well   b

  • :spinning::sunny::wink:

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